My past weeks have been a blur, with my 2 weeks of non stop commercial work, many volunteer meetings, and finally, the 4 days 3 nights camp!
Which was a blast despite it being tedious, in both physically and mentally aspects.
It’s my first time working with kids with chronic illnesses.
I love kids, it’s hard for me to imagine them having their childhood plagued by much pain, the awareness of the serious consequences that might occur if they partake in activities that healthy children take for granted, they could perform in.
Mostly, I have worked with blessed kids, most of them bratty and I could be as sarcastic or mean to them as I want, I am not saying they deserve it but in my own warped way, I’m kinda giving them a reality check.
Of course, I won’t go to the extent of abolishing their self esteem emotionally, what I did was in humour (although some people don’t get it), nothing malicious.
Was supposed to post this before my summer camp…oh well.
Would explain the subject title in more details when I feel like it

Been ages since I have updated my blog.
I am such a procrastinator.
It has been months…life altering months.
Besides the fact I am on a different continent now.
I have also been attached briefly, became single, somewhat got tangled in a messy relationship, became single again and right now I decided I have way too much drama to last me to want to get involved in another one without taking it real slow.
Relationships befuddled me.
Perhaps my perceptions are too unique that I can’t really find common ground with most of the people I’ve met.
And people I have met have very different views about me.
I don’t have a consistent behaviour.
At times, I really wonder what the hell am I doing and if I have a puppeteer to guide me down the paths I would have otherwise steer clear of.
Sounds like I am making excuses for my remorses and regrets.
Life is indeed about learning, good or bad, can’t shake that away.
Ah life.
I should be thankful I am still alive.
A year of half glass full.

I spent 3 days in San Francisco so far.
I biked the Golden Gate Bridge to Tibourn which is 32 miles in total which round up to 60 odd kilometers with a colleague/friend from camp.
That’s like 8 hours of riding!
Nevertheless, it was an awesome workout.
I’d do it again if the rental pricing isn’t so high.
I have been staying up all night, managing to catch 2 hours of sleep before I was woken up by doorbell ringing and loud knocking.
I was at the hostel lobby.
Why is that instead of the room?
Well, for one, I was told the hostel room was fully booked and I was supposed to catch a ride to L.A. but it didn’t work out.
So, I hung out with my friend for the day, visiting Castro then we chilled out, she offered to take shifts so I could sneak into her bed and rest but of course I declined, determining to rough it out.
I was peeved when I discovered that there’s actually a spare bed in the room that I checked out from earlier but oh well I am not gonna spend 28USD since I already shifted.
So, ya, I am sleep deprived.
I have 3 other friends joining us today at the hostel.
Two from Ukraine and one from Czech Republic, the one with me now hails from Britain.
We are a truly international bunch.
I might be going to Los Angeles tomorrow, hang out for a few days and head towards San Diego.
SURFIIIINNNGGGGG!
Hopefully, I’ll get a reply from the job I wanna work at soon.
Cash’s running low

P.S : Flickr sucks!

Now that I am in civilization, here’s some pics from my camp life…

So, this is it.
I am finally on board the plane flying towards United States.
Towards a new beginning, hopefully.
Somehow, my level of enthusiasm for my USA trip dwindled in the past month.
I got distracted.
By someone.
An unexpected relationship which blossomed between two person who could not be more different.
Yet, despite the many differences, we are/were happy together (past tense as am unsure when I would see the person again). We do have squabbles but not as frequent or as dramatic. Just some petty misunderstandings here and there.
We see each other almost everyday if we could. We gained kilograms, our wallets got visibly thinner, our eye-bags got darker…
I remembered the first time we met, I teased you mercilessly about your age and stuff and that we watched “Eternal Summer”, your choice as it was a gay movie. We met up as we were both looking for sporty friends to hang out with. Before that, we had dinner which is your current favourite place. We had an unexpected guest at our table, we don’t even know each other’s name then but all and more were revealed as we chatted with the guest. It was rather awkward when she asked how we met. I claimed that you are my “community outreach program”.
We met the following day for a basketball session which you claimed to know the directions to the location. I ended up traveling a longer journey and you, with embarrassment of your wrong information. We went to East Coast park, you equipped with your inline skates and me, with my skateboard. I made you towed me for some distance, you, being the nice person, you are, obliged.
I got to know you a little more when we sat down on the beach and started talking. It slipped out that it was your birthday. You refused to celebrate it but I am not one who listen to pleas hence I went ahead and bought Hershey’s pie from Burger King whilst you skated away. Past midnight, you fell into a drain whilst we walked to the bus stop for our journey home. I didn’t realize it as I was walking ahead with my headphones blaring away, till, I stopped and wait for you to appear. Your legs bled rather profusely and I didn’t get the severity of it till several days later as I thought it was superficial. You refused to get treatment because of unpleasant experiences.
Subsequently, we met up quite frequently, but you always seem reserved and awkward around me. I kinda got the vibes that you kinda like me more than friends. I have an affirmative after much probing. Your honesty is endearing. Your patience towards me, is very admirable. I am a difficult person, I know so, myself. Yet, you are relentless in getting an answer out from me. We decided to meet up and talk about it.
You got one out from me that night at the beach albeit it being rather vague. We talked and sat in awkward silence for a while. When we were leaving, you made your move. A gesture to symbolize you want to be more than friends. You refused to go home although it was fairly late as you gotta work in a mere few hours, you insisted on staying hence I pulled your arm to get you to the direction of your car.
You resisted of course, we fought for a short while and then you grabbed my hand and held it. Of course, being the difficult person, I put up some resistance…
I don’t wear my heart on my sleeve, I frustrated you so very often with my many comments, non malicious, of course, you knew it but being petty, as you are, you took offense.
You have the knowledge that I am leaving, perhaps, for the good. “Though short-lived but at least we have that moments…” not exactly word to word but that was implied.
I’m not the mushy type or rather I try very hard not to.
I just wanna say I treasured those moments, very much.
No one could be certain what the future holds and I am not one to give hopes.
However, one thing is certain, I will miss you, JYJY.

Alter egos.
An escape to an alternate reality.
Rebirth or delusion?
Someone you inspire to be but are afraid to be.
Life shouldn’t be so hard.
If we can’t live the way we want to, what’s the point of living at all?

Phew, I finally have a breather.
Has been working non stop for 2 weeks, add volunteer work and a busy social life, I was practically a walking cadaver.
Now I’m a bummer. Till I get another project.
I met up with 2 cool dudes recently.
One being my mentor, a guy I got to befriend on a production set for a movie donkey years ago. I helped out in his department, he taught me stuff and we clicked over sports, nature and ideals.
He is old enough to be my dad though he doesn’t look it at all.
I babysit his son once and even attended his son’s school play.
How odd.
He has so many interesting experiences and done the most exciting assignments like rigging up for camera shots, for gushing whitewater rafting shots, helicopter shots, underwater, etc.
Whoa.
We hang out at times when we both finished shoots early and he’ll send or drop me off somewhere with his huge grip truck.
Its a sight to behold.
Got an invitation to Bali but I have to pass due to financial constraints…urgh and I don’t really like people to pay for my trip so…
I got an unexpected call on one afternoon
My adventurous pal is back in town on a layover to Scotland.
He told me the date he’ll be coming over but it slipped off my mind hence it was a surprise as I already planned on going out with someone…
Anyhow, the lucky bastard got a stint to cover one of the biggest world adventure race this year.
He got SQ flights and get paid for this!
Man, how I hate him.
Did I mention, he’s my age!
He has partake in New Zealand, Australia, Malaysia and soon Canada adventure races.
I feel like such shit besides him.
He bought me a pair of gloves as a gift which is weird but at least I could wear ‘em in California.
He’s my idol.
If only, I could be a female version of him.
I missed out so many adventure races this year!
I am contemplating on one right before I leave…
I might join a small scale race one this Sunday…but I have volunteer work as well.
Urgh, time could be so uncooperative.

Taken whilst I was on a cab to meet someone.
No photoshop rendered. Might have change the exposure on my camera though. But that day, the skies were really lovely.

I like how the sunset hues reflects on the hotel.

On the last day of shoot, the weather turned a 360 degrees, the wind was terribly strong, the skies dark and sombre, it was quite cool actually save for the hassles it caused.

It took a while and a lot of tricks up the production crews’ sleeves to finally persuade the cute little 5 yr old in 3 yr old body Xavier to do the act. He’s the cutest, funniest boy ever

A lot of bubbles are harmed in the process of entertaining the kids.